||[Dec. 5th, 2006|12:30 am]
krissy fribby slink [the punkrock pixie princess]
i was cranky last night; it's finally cold like it's supposed to be in december [no more sitting outside in the sun & eating ice cream for tobys & krissys]. we have to bundle up up up to go outside & i feel like a penguin, waddling around campus. i wish it would snow, it would provide visual, i'm not sure what, but then i could see the cold, & besides, snow is so pretty & it's been so long. |
i remember one winter? two winters? ago, when it was so so so cold [it must have been when i was sixteen because everything was frozen & cold then, the buses for school wouldn't even start one day]& the housatonic was just ice for what seemed like the longest time- & everything was just white & ice & snow & i was so sick & tired of being cold. & then one day, right in the middle of the river, there was just a tiny, teensy streak of running water in the center of all that ice & i almost cried, i was so happy. just to see that there was life, again, that it was coming back. when it rained i tucked myself into bed & just listened to it, the sounds of the rain, because it was so sweet & it had been so long since i had heard anything but the silent fall of snow.
but now it's the other way- i've heard the rain, the leaves are gone, it's cold, i don't have any boots but i have new gloves & so: snow!
today i actually felt like myself in a pleasant way. i failed an astronomy lab final & i ran to eat lunch & then to another final which ended up being making a monument out of clay. so i had clay dust on my sweatshirt & in my fingernails & in the creases of my palms & it felt like old times. i made holiday cards for political prisoners. i carried the extra clay back to the room & stopped at an art exhibit & got red paint all over my hand touching the piece that directed me to lay hands on it. i felt smudged & creative, having just made a sculpture & cards, carting clay back to the room.
toby & i actually had friends today; we went out to eat with them & they bought us dinner. we all came back to our room & made clay things [a little snowman & a little fat man & a big scary man who is mostly chin who is now inhabiting toby's lederhosen] & i was happy. people! new people! in our room! talking & laughing & having fun! how exciting :)
then we had to go an observing session on the ROOF in the DARK & COLD. there were so many people there...but we were still freezing. sean called when i was on the roof & when i told him where i was & how much we were freezing he walked all the way from towers, to the library, back to the physics building to bring toby & i hot chocolate & doughnuts. for those of you who are not comfortable with the geography of uconn, that is a very, very long walk. he is totally getting sexual favors for that hot chocolate run :p
okay, so this entry is long & rambling & toby has just shut off the lights, so i think it's time for bed :) peace.